Internal Monolouge and Lessons From 2013
Tuesday 31 December 2013 @ 15:44  0 stares
I think that this holiday has finally done some good for me. On better days, I feel content and contentment is the best feeling, truly. These days I like staying in my enclave aka room and watch shows and movies in the dark with some candle light  (currently in a scented-candle phase) and tea (NOT coffee because I fail at coffee-making) while wrapped in cosy shawls, sweaters and socks. These things make me feel so at ease and safe I just get overwhelmed by how blessed I am to enjoy such little joys. Existing is becoming a lot easier, it shouldn't ever be hard and as of now I have resolved to lead a better, much more positive lifestyle.Things will only be as hard as you make it out to be. Its alright to feel under the weather sometimes but its not okay to immerse yourself in your own sorrows and do nothing to help yourself out. That is being selfish, not to mention unfair to yourself. (and others) Self destructive behaviour leads you nowhere and a little bit of positivity,- a nice thought or a favourite song can perk you up a lot. 2013 has taught me many things.

One of the lessons would be that heart-attack related jokes are far from funny, especially if you've lost someone dear to that very cardiac illness. Another thing I learnt from the heart wrenching loss is that grief is part and parcel of life, you just can't let yourself get caught up in the past. Last but not least, no matter how much grief you may feel, someone else will hurt more than you and you are not entitled to feel as if other people should grieve alongside you because not everybody understands; and that is perfectly fine. Not everybody or maybe even nobody would understand the going-ons in your head and you shouldn't expect them to. You're stronger than that and you can pull through alone, stronger than ever.

 I think that's the most valuable lesson I've learnt this year, that the only person who can be there for me is myself. I can have so much support from a dear friend but the only person who has the power to pick me up is myself. The only person who can destroy me is ultimately, myself as well. The fault of most people our age is that we think we've got life all figured out, that we're better than the ones younger than us, that life is so hard and will never get better. That is all bullshit. None of us have got life all figured out,we're not even halfway through our lifetimes (if, God willing, we lead lives of longevity) . An important tip would be to pay attention to the young ones because they know love and fear much better than we do. Adults may not know much themselves, they are learning too and their added age in numbers is no justification for the preconceived and widespread notion that they understand or know more than we do. We are all human, we are all learning. The most important thing is to always be soft and kind in our dealings with each other because we may not understand one's troubles,- or we might assume they do not exist. However,  just because some things are unseen it doesn't mean they're not felt.

This has been utterly lengthy and it would be phenomenal if you've read this far but I hope that this anecdote can be regarded as food for thought, just a little something to mull over.
SONG OF THE DAY  (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧: 2013 -Arctic Monkeys
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