Tuesday 25 February 2014 @ 20:29 0 stares
goes the relentless clock
I'm growing restless with time
Wondering what is rightfully mine
Nothing I have done here
Has been worthwhile
I question my decisions
Pore over the what-ifs in disgrace
Every opportunity I've let slip past-
I recall with a bitter aftertaste.
My days here are numbered
by the hourglass.
As I age yet another year,
I look back, pervaded with fear.
I couldn't have gotten wiser
if I've foolishly repeated mistakes.
What is the point in getting older
If the conscience refuses to wake?
I don't want to be held captive
Locked in a steel cage
Confined within the bars
of repressed rage.
Bound by chains of self-doubt
Cuffed by contradicting ways.
Dig me a grave on an empty hill
Date of demise: impending
My motivation
will be the ending
I'll carve in stone.
Saturday 22 February 2014 @ 21:49 0 stares
I traverse continents of complexities
in search for answers
steadfast ones with on-point accuracy
to swallow my queries,
but they don't exist;
and my search persists.
In a perfect world,
people of various colours embrace,
exchanging hugs
instead of ammunition.
In a perfect world,
kisses heal wounds, not stitches.
And friends don't lodge knives
in one another's backs.
But the world isn't perfect
Not for an ephemeral second
Not even when I close my eyes
And slip into a moment of transient bliss and quiet.
Saturday 15 February 2014 @ 00:32 0 stares
If you are aware of my presence on IG you may have seen most of these pictures hahah oops. Anyway!!!! I'm finally blogging hehe. Innova has been great, I love how everyone is so easy going and the diversity there -WOAH we have the single pointers, the average joes ie me, the poly students, Pegasus and international kids, yet everyone fits right in and gets along extremely well! I have been so blessed to have spent my orientation with the cutest bunch of people I've ever met in my life. We literally clicked on Day 1 and the bond has grown progressively stronger day by day! Campfire was amazing, so much love for Aquila. Everyone in the school is family, really- its totally cool to have a conversation with someone you've never met. I am genuinely looking forward to school days, I love IJ so much. Quite afraid for PW though, but heck WE SHALL SLAY IT. I am really pumped for OAC, its going to be one of the rare opportunitiues for us to spend time together as an OG/star group. DESARU HERE WE COME.
Wan Ning (the cutesy derpy girl in the last picture) gave all of us the cutest V'day cards omg. Kind of reminiscent of Crescent. She's my jie and I'm her adek (adik/ little sister) HAHA.
Donika, Matheaus, Gubi and I were chatting about bgr issues today over lunch HAHAH and openly sharing our stories, its insanely easy to talk to guys??? Being in an all-girls school really instilled a fear of the unknown in me HAHA but I love being in a co-ed environment, the people here are just so nice. I hope Matheaus gets his ahem hahahah its adorable when he talks about her ok. And the guy doesn't eat carbs- its crazy. Anyway, I hope everyone is settling well in their respective schools, I am truly truly happy in IJ and I've never felt so positive/at home in the longest time ever. My lectures so far have been engaging and settling in hasn't been an issue, so thank God for that :-)
Love you all, take care x
Friday 14 February 2014 @ 23:17 0 stares
Storms raged like angry drunkards in a brawl
overhead, beer raindrops fall
rolling off dark skies that loom
over vulnerable, unprotected skulls
After the thunder comes the Sun.
A crack of light
A glint of hope
The start of dawn.
Beaming across once ravaged seas,-
now calm,
Spread across the horizon
Like a promise, fulfilled.
Flowers sprout across battlefields,
after the war.
Waiting for their moment to bloom,
for Spring to come.
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THE GIRL IN THE MIRROR
I didn't like her- the girl in the mirror
Detest, loathe & spite
Ignite like wildfire.
Staring right in the eyes of the enemy
An old friend who betrayed me
She wasn't the person I aspired to be
A kick, spit, punch
Glass fragments smash against concrete
With a resounding sound
Begone .
I am you no longer
The pain you've caused me shall falter
Once I've pieced myself together.